Friday, July 15, 2005

Memo to Julia Roberts...

I wouldn't be opposed to moving to wherever you live to nanny for your children. just keep it in mind. Have a ton of great references :)

I love my job. Don't get me wrong on that one. LOVE MY JOB!! I work for 2 of the greatest parents and 2 of the best kids! I'm getting to the point in my life where I know I'm not going to be a nanny forever. I need to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. Unless something fabulous falls in my lap, I need to start searching. I'm TERRIFIC with kids. I love working with them, I can understand their needs...Especially babies! I've always had that gift. There's just something missing. Like I'm sick of watching everyone else's kids and not having my own. I think I'm having a tiny midlife crisis (since I'm only going to live until I'm 61...I took one of those quizzes LOL). I had my best girl friend tell me that being with someone is not all that it's cracked up to be. Now, what I think about that is that if you find THE ONE you are suppose to be with, being with someone would be the most fantastic thing in the world. Did you ever think that maybe somewhere in your life your chance passed you by...That the person you are suppose to be with, is gone. And if that's the case...Are you suppose to find someone else or live your entire life alone? I don't want to be alone. I have a hard time being alone. Tonight, for example, I haven't said a word OUTLOUD to anyone since 530pm. It's 11pm now. Not one word. LOL. Ok..Enough. I just laughed at myself. How soon is too soon to go on medicine for being screwed up? LOL.

anyway, so yeah, Julia...Keep me in mind hahah.



Anonymous said...

There are a lot of somebodies for everybody...keep your heart open and don't look down when you're walking around.

amanda kathleen said...

Unless you're mean.. and meet all the wrong guys. Or feel nothing "special" for the good ones and push them away.

In the past, I pushed someone away. There was nothing special about it. I was young, and we were pretty serious. I didn't want to be serious. I can't help but feel like I pushed away the one I was supposed to be with, and that's it. I'll be alone forever. That scares the shit out of me.

amanda kathleen said...

uhhh unless you're ME.... not mean. -slaps forehead-